I know life isn't fair, I know nobody's life is 'fair.' Everybody has their challenges, mine just happens to be pain. For the past four years my life has been centered around doctor's appointments, physio appointments and waiting in the emergency rooms of hospitals. It sucks. But based on the "Pain Centered Life" charts, I don't fit into it because my grades have never dropped, I still bike, I ski, I kayak, I do everything I did before, but not quite as well. Nobody else seems to be able to tell my life has changed by talking to me, or looking at me, but it has. I used to do thing because I enjoyed them, now I do them as a distraction.
Who goes to university for a distraction? Who takes six courses to distract themselves from pain? Who races bikes as distraction? I do. I don't know what else to do. My pain isn't even near manageable, it just seems like it is because I can do some many things. Lately my pain has been getting worse, lately I have been exercising twice as hard.
I am the only student on campus with this condition, the only one. I know this because if there was another one, they would be registered with the CSD, and the people at the CSD said this is the first time they have heard of this condition. That also sucks. My friends understand what I have, but they don't understand what it is like. Its hard to be a 'normal' university student when nothing is normal about you.
Who goes to university for a distraction? Who takes six courses to distract themselves from pain? Who races bikes as distraction? I do. I don't know what else to do. My pain isn't even near manageable, it just seems like it is because I can do some many things. Lately my pain has been getting worse, lately I have been exercising twice as hard.
I am the only student on campus with this condition, the only one. I know this because if there was another one, they would be registered with the CSD, and the people at the CSD said this is the first time they have heard of this condition. That also sucks. My friends understand what I have, but they don't understand what it is like. Its hard to be a 'normal' university student when nothing is normal about you.
Just walking down Pain St.
